I was spending a majority of today cleaning, doing laundry and having a much needed tea party with my girls, when a beautiful feeling of peace entered my soul. Not having the pressure of something hanging over your head is something quite wonderful. The past couple of weeks have been extremely stressful and having these quiet moments to soak in my children are WONDERFUL.
I’ve been working on something big for my love of photography. I can’t wait to reveal it ~ no big date set yet.
In 1 week my little baby girl will be 4 months old. She is amazing. There really are no words that I can muster up right now to tell you how much my heart literally skips a beat when I see her smile at me. It’s funny how you never realize something is missing in your life until it is there.
Right now I feel extremely complete.
Have I talked about how Jayden is in tap? Well, he is…. and I LOVE it and he loves it even more. Friday he had his first tap recital…. talk about CUTENESS! Here – see for yourself!
Through my pregnancy I was absolutely terrified that this little girl would enter this world and I wouldn’t be able to love her like I love Jayden and Ella. I knew in my hear that this honestly in no way could even be possible, but I always had this small fear within me.
Aliyah came out and I thought WOW! She looks so much like Ella, and then I thought wait… she looks just like Jayden. Then we discovered her eyebrows, eyes & nose are literally Jayden’s features to the T! Then her mouth and cheeks are Ella to the T. I got this perfect little miracle that’s both of my kids combined into one.
Oh, and that fear of not loving her the same way vanished the minute I heard her cry. I am HEAD. OVER. HEELS. IN. LOVE!
Today Aliyah is 4 days old and she sleeps more than Ella & Jayden ever slept. I don’t know if this is because I’m nursing her instead of formula feeding. Speaking of nursing, it’s going amazingly well. I’ve heard basically horror story after horror story and was pretty scared going into it, but am so glad I chose to go with it. I don’t have a horror story yet, and hopefully don’t get one. It doesn’t hurt and she’s loving it, and I never thought I’d say this but I’m loving it too.
Jayden is loving her and always says in the cutest voice, “She’s just so adorable!” Ella has amazingly not shown one ounce of jealousy towards her new baby sister. I don’t really understand why things are going to smoothly and why everyone is just perfectly happy, but they are and we are.
A little snippet about the day that I had Aliyah ~ 4 hours after I had her my mom showed up at the hospital with my children. Ella walked in with this whole new attitude and I think I might have actually felt my heart break into two. She didn’t want to hug me, she didn’t show any interest in her sister, all in all I thought it was going to be a horrible experience. But then they handed Aliyah to Ella, and the look on her face in the pictures says so many things. Most of all it shows the months and months of anticipation that Ella has gone through and finally being able to see her baby sister and hold her in her arms was everything to her.
After analyzing her and realizing the reality of her having a baby sister she decided that she absolutely loves her and I think her face here pretty much screams that
Then there’s the superstar big brother. Jayden has melted my heart with not only Ella, but now Aliyah as well. I have this video of him at the hospital when he came to meet her and he’s singing a lullaby to her. I have to say that I am beyond blessed to have Jayden as my son. He loves his sisters, and his love is so big that you can just feel it radiating off of him.
Gino and I are completely different this time around. With Jayden we were REALLY young and clueless, and didn’t even really get along with each other. With Ella we were 110% more comfortable and better at the whole parenting thing since we’d been parents for 6 years already. This time around we feel like we’re pros. She’s just fit perfectly into the crazy little family life we have going on here, and I feel like we know even more on how to adjust to a newborn in our family. The only major difference this time around is I’m breastfeeding, but I’m actually finding that more enjoyable and easier than bottle feeding….. especially in the middle of the night.
I have had an over abundance of help between my husband and my amazing and beautiful friend that lives right next door. Gino took a month off of work and I’m so sad that this next week is his last week off. It’s pretty much a subject that I don’t really want to talk about too much, because I could cry.
I can’t believe I have 3 kids! I can’t believe we’re a family of 5! I love it…. I have always wanted a big family and Gino and I are fulfilling OUR dream, and that’s all that matters. Here’s our first family picture of us as a family of 5
I absolutely enjoy this little man of mine 🙂 Conversations with him always make me giggle and smile. So I want to start video recording him talking more. So I introduce to you ~ my little Jayden Garibay.
I struggle with patience. It’s a fault of mine, and it’s something I wish wasn’t. Patience is the single most important thing for a parent to have, most importantly, a mom to have. Whenever I say my prayers I always ask for more patience, and I’ve really been trying to reflect and pinpoint how I can change myself in order to have more of this virtuous thing.
Being a part of this blog community can really just put things in perspective. When I’m lacking patience I think of mother’s whose babies are no longer with them. When I’m lacking patience I think about the moms who seem to have it all figured out and are Martha Stewart of parenting. But you know what? It’s okay. We’re not perfect, and if we were perfect we wouldn’t be here.
I think my patience has really been tried these past couple of weeks as I’ve had a new little girl in my life. Having 2 toddlers definitely has its challenges. Having 2 toddlers REALLY tests your patience. And sometimes I wonder if God does certain things, to answer your prayers. Recently I heard somewhere to be careful of what you wish for, or pray for. You might be asking God for more strength, so he gives you more trials to strengthen you. I was asking for more patience, so God gave me another toddler to really try my nerves LOL. But I’m thankful for it, because I’m learning and I’m growing.
Lately one thing that REALLY, and I mean REEEEEAAAALLLLY tests this mama’s patience is when Miss Ella Bella locks herself in rooms…. it’s an every day thing and something that SCARES THE CRAP out of me. What if she’s locked in a room and there’s a fire? Or what if she shoves something in her mouth and chokes? When she locks herself in the bathroom she’s getting into my Bare Minerals makeup, which kills me and then finally will come out once her makeup is done. I have video of this and I have a video of the girls at the park ~ they’re so dang cute when they get along haha.
Thought I’d add before the mom blog police attack me ~ yes I do know there is cleaner on the toilet and that my daughter was locked in the bathroom with access to it…. I was cleaning my bathroom and literally walked out for a couple of seconds to throw something over by my washing machine when Miss Thang swooped in, slammed the door and locked me out. I did however know she wasn’t messing with the cleaner as her obsession is with makeup.
AND! Wanted to add that the videos were totally taken from my DROID phone… the video camera is THAT good!
Today my daughter shocked the pants off of me. The girl just turned two and I watched her saw her do this….. this video is of me telling her to do it again, but she honestly did this EXACT thing on her own…. I’m still in shock!
**oh and don’t mind my phone ringing in the background of the video LOL**
This photoshoot was probably one of the best ones I will ever do. My baby turned 2 and taking these pictures were a surprise for her daddy. If you would like to see these pictures large and w/out the video please {CLICK HERE} to go to my photography blog.
This photoshoot was probably one of the best ones I will ever do. My baby turned 2 and taking these pictures were a surprise for her daddy. If you would like to see these pictures large and w/out the video please {CLICK HERE} to go to my photography blog.
