Do they really think I’m stupid? I keep hearing this sweet little voice from outside saying, “Mommy we REALLY want our pictures taken out here. I’ll pose for you.” Hmmmm…… I think not! Here is what they’re doing outside and I was smart enough to take the pics before they got the idea in their head to “get me” The last picture on here is what I was driving in earlier – now keep in mind I DO NOT DRIVE IN SNOW. So, basically I cried the whole way home. My wonderful loving husband laughed at me the whole way home.
Category Archives: Jayden
First Cabbage Patch Dolls
I remember my first Cabbage Patch. She was a newborn and her name was Christina. I remember her birthday was September 1st and one September 1st when I was 6 years old we had a birthday party for her. All of the neighborhood kids came over with their dolls and my mom bought cupcakes. We lived in Lodi – amazing the little things we remember. Yesterday the kids got a package in the mail from Aunt Ksee. Jayden got another transformer to add to his collection – talk about excitement!! Ella got her first newborn cabbage patch kid. The Birth Certificate says her name is Lauree Janelle and was born on January 20th. Ella loves her. She tries to chew on her face and sometimes gets frustrated, but when I hold her up so she can see her a big smile goes across her face. Her first real baby doll…. so sweet!
And then there’s Jayden. My mom bought him a boy cabbage patch doll. I honestly for the life of me cannot remember its name, and the birth certificate is probably packed away with all of my scrapbook supplies in the garage, but I had to share a picture of Jayden w/his little mexican soccer player cabbage patch doll. He is shirtless, because I guess Jayden decided that the needed to show off the doll’s muscles lol.
Guilt
Why is that no matter how good of a parent we are we are still faced with guilt almost every day of our lives. Maybe this isn’t the case with every parent, but it is with me. I’m a good mom. I know I’m a good mom. But let’s give last night for an example. I was busy working downstairs and I looked at the clock and though ‘Uh oh…I need to get upstairs and tuck Jayden in and get him into bed.’ I went up there and he was sleeping. I didn’t get to tuck him in. Didn’t get to read him a story. That guilt ate at me all night long. He did brush his teeth though, because his mouthwash was out…very odd for him! Makes me so proud!
Food is such an issue in our house. Like my post yesterday, Jayden has issues with food. I cannot force this child to eat anything otherwise he WILL throw it up. He’s pickier than I was as a child and that’s pretty darn picky! I feel guilty when I pop chicken nuggets in the microwave. Crap, I even feel guilty when I make him fish sticks. No matter what he eats I feel guilty that he’s not eating veggies or something super healthy. However, he does eat fruit all day long and prefers wheat bread over white bread and that puts a smile on my face 🙂 And he drinks water, which some kids HATE…well, Jayden would rather have water than anything to drink.
Another overwhelming guilt that I have is that my one on one time with Jayden is nothing like it used to be. He was an only child for 6 years. That’s 6 years of having my undivided attention. 6 years of the world (well our world) revolving around Jayden. That changed drastically. All of our attention shifted quickly to Ella. Rushing her to the hospital so many times right after bringing her home. Having to be away from me while I was at the hospital in Portland and he was home w/my husband. Through it all he is still sweet. Still loving. Not jealous. And I feel guilt. I feel guilty that Ella sometimes takes up all of my time and I can’t go read him a story at that second. I can’t peel that orange, because if I move she’ll wake up, please just wait 5 more minutes. And he waits. Very rarely will he get his feeling hurt over Ella getting put in front of him. I know things will get better, and I know Jayden understands, but that doesn’t help the guilt I feel inside.
I guess this post is just for me to talk about how it’s hard that no matter how good of a mother you are, you still have this overwhelming guilt inside of you that you should be doing better. Are there other moms out there that feel this way?
Gag Reflux
My son has the worst gag reflux. It drives me crazy. If something is put in front of him at the dinner table that he does not like he starts gagging and then throws up. Yes, this beautiful child of mine has thrown up on my kitchen table and made us all not want to eat our food.
One day the office at Jayden’s school called and I had to come and pick him up because he got sick in the cafeteria. I walk in the office and he was completely fine. We get in the car and he tells me that a kid chewed up his food and opened his mouth and that made Jayden throw up. UGH!
Today I pick up Jayden and he tells me that he threw up at lunch today. Luckily his teacher is on to his gag reflux and doesn’t send him home (I’d hate for him to miss school over this) So, I ask him why he threw up and he told me “Because people make me sick.” I laughed my butt off and unfortunately couldn’t hold my laughter and laughed in front of him. So, he probably at this point thinks he’s hilarious. Oh they joyous things that come out of this little boy’s mouth.
Any advice on how to get him not to do this would be awesome!
It’s Christmas Again!!
My dear husband opened the door tonight for Jayden to see the ground covered in snow. Jayden got more excited than I think I’ve ever seen him before. He started jumping up and down saying “It’s Christmas again! Oh yeah, baby!!” While I find this just downright adorable it also just melts my heart into purple puddles. Watching my son’s face light up gets me every time. Maybe I should invest in one of those snow makers so I can see his face light up like this every day. Oh the joys of snow. Well, unfortunately there’s not going to be any excitement in the morning when I drag him out of bed moaning and groaning to make him go back to school instead of running down the stairs to see what Santa has brought him.
Now for my moan! I do not want to have to get up early tomorrow! I have gotten so used to not having to wake up prior to 8:30am with this whole Christmas break thing and I’ve really enjoyed not having to leave my house @ 12:15 while I’m in the middle of some very intense work to pick up Jayden from school. But then again….. YAY! He’s going back to school ~ I’ll actually get to get some work done if Ella cooperates!!! Maybe I can get my husband to take him tomorrow. I really don’t feel like walking in snow – I don’t even have snow boots yet….. and snow is cold!
She has a tooth & He lost one!!
We have had quite the busy couple of weeks w/Ella. On 12/22/07 she rolled over, on 12/28/07 she sat by herself. Somewhere along these lines she held her own bottle and today I felt a tooth that broke through!!! I will get pics up of her sitting oh so proud by herself and of her first tooth!!!!
Jayden lost his first tooth on 12/30/07 and the Tooth Fairy was so nice to him… she gave him a whole $5.00! He bought himself a smoothie at the mall and a big sucker. Well, last night lo and behold I hear Jayden in his room saying MY TOOTH FELL OUT!!! CRAP! How is the tooth fairy supposed to come when I have no car since my husband is at work. So I ran to the calendar w/Jayden and said “OH MAN! The Tooth Fairy is on vacation until tomorrow night.” He bought it! Thank you, Lord! So, we set his tooth on his head board and tonight we’ll be putting it under his pillow for the Tooth Fairy…. so many wonderful events happening in these parts :0)
So, now I’m going to prepare myself for Jayden’s friend that’s coming over…. boys together are CRAZY! So, then I’ll come back and edit this post with pictures… hope everyone has a blessed day!
Summing Up 2007
This has been an amazing year. We started our year out in Sacramento, where we’ve lived our entire relationship/marriage. Where our son was born. Where our family lives. Where our hearts reside. I found out I was pregnant in December 2006. So, I started 2007 out pregnant and praying and praying that all would go well. In 2006 I had been pregnant and lost our baby girl, Mya. So, we entered 2007 with high hopes that it would be a much better year than 2006 brought us.
April 7, 2007 we did the unthinkable. We packed our home up and moved to Oregon. I never thought in a million years I’d be able to free myself from the stresses of the City. I never thought I’d be able to leave my mom, my sister, my brother – my brand new nephew. But we did it. We knew that we needed to plant our roots. Jayden would be starting kindergarten and we wanted to have him go to school in a small town. We didn’t want the city life for him or our unborn child. So, with tears in our eyes and a heavy weight on our hearts we left everything we knew and loved for a fresh start at life. I’m happy to say that it was the best decision we’ve ever made. Although we miss our families so much, we are finally a content, happy, loving family. I couldn’t ask for more.
August 14, 2007 we gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Ella Marie was 6lbs 7 ounces ~ 18 1/4 in. long. Amazing. The most amazing part of this day was that Jayden was at the hospital. He had his ear to the door waiting to hear his baby sister’s first cry. Moments after she was born Jayden was in the room holding his baby sister. Our family at that moment was complete. It’s like a hole in our hearts was filled. Jayden was an amazing big brother from the beginning. Never an ounce of jealousy, which being that he was an only child for 6 years I was a little scared of this.
September 5, 2007 ~ 1 year since we lost our angel baby Mya. We sent her off balloons at Lithia Park and had a family picnic. It was a very sad day for us, but at the same time we realized that without Mya leaving us we wouldn’t be able to have Ella and we couldn’t imagine life without her.
September 11, 2007 ~ Jayden started kindergarten. I cried. I wouldn’t have cried but the PTA passed out a poem that made me cry. He’s been doing absolutely wonderful and he loves school!! He’s writing his name, adding, can tell you what letter words start with and is working on reading!!! He’s so smart and just an amazing little boy.
October 5, 2007 our world almost came to a crashing stop. Ella was hospitalized and we discovered that our healthy little baby girl wasn’t so healthy. She was extremely sick and we had brought her in to her doctors the day before and was told that she just had an icky stomach virus. I knew in my heart that something else was wrong with her. Something major was wrong with her. October5, 2007 Ella’s doctor called me and asked me to bring her in for a quick check right before the weekend. Thank you, Lord. Thank you thank you thank you! If he hadn’t asked us to bring Ella in Ella would not be with us today. Ella’s heart rate was jumping up to 280 and she had been in this state for so long that her organs were starting to shut down. A couple more hours and this baby girl would have stopped breathing. They ended up shocking her heart and thankfully it worked. But in order to repair the damage they gave her something that paralyzed her and put her on ventilators so she didn’t have to work on breathing while repairing her organs. She got mediflighted to Portland and we learned that our baby girl had a heart defect called Wolf Parkinson White Syndrome. We now are aware and I can instantly tell when something is wrong with her, but we’ve had quite a roller coaster with this. She now is on medication that she started on 10/25/2007. This medication is a miracle. After many hospitalizations she has been symptom free ever since she started this medication. I am so thankful that she doing so well now. She will be able to have a procedure when she’s older where they go into her heart w/a catheter and fix her problem. Until then we are lucky to have a medication that works.
Besides Ella’s heart condition we had a miraculous and wonderful year. We’ve never been happier than where we are at in our lives. I am now able to stay at home with my children while I work for my Grandparents through my house. I couldn’t have ever asked for anything more wonderful. It’s like everything we’ve ever dreamed of us happened to us in 2007. I hope that 2008 brings us as much joy as 2007 has.
Where does he come up with this stuff?
This morning I was laying in bed wishing really hard that it wasn’t morning. And then I thought hmm… maybe, just maybe, Gino will take Jayden to school today. Well, while I’m laying in bed I hear Gino walk into Jayden’s room and here’s the conversation they had…
Gino: Where’s your juice boxes?
Jayden:I don’t know, Dad
Gino: Jayden you drank all of your juice boxes, what am I supposed to put in your lunch? Why didn’t you leave one?
Jayden:Dad, I don’t know, I’m just out of control
This child says the most shocking things sometimes!
Speech Therapy
I met with the Speech Therapist and his teacher at Jayden’s school today. The meeting went great! We all agreed that it would be in Jayden’s best interest to start meeting w/the Speech Therapist 2x/week for a total of 50 minutes/week. Our main goals to work with Jayden are:
1. To get him to structure his sentences correctly. He mixes his words up in sentences.
2. For him to finish one subject before jumping to another. Example: He’ll be in the middle of a sentence and jump to a completely different subject. It’s almost like his mind is going too fast.
3. To complete 1 Step Directions. Example: “Jayden walk to the orange trash can.” Um, he kinda gets off task a little bit LOL.
I will update as things progress, but I think this is going to be a really great thing for him.
He Has a Girlfriend!
Jayden has his first girlfriend. Her name is Alexis and she really is cute. I went to pick up Jayden from school today and him and Alexis walked out holding hands. OMGoodness! It really was cute. But it’s such an eye opener that he’s growing up. So, we get in the car and I asked him, “Is she your girlfriend?” I’ve asked this question before in a teasing manner, and he’s always said, “NO!” This time was different. Jayden replied, “Yes, Mom, and we’re gonna go on a date.” My heart kinda broke a little bit.
I told Gino and you’d think he’d feel all proud of his little boy, but he wasn’t. I’m kinda shocked. He asked him so tell me about your girlfriend and Jayden said, “Yeah, we hold hands and I need a nice shirt for our date.” Gino didn’t really say much to him then told me that it bothers him. So I told Jayden that girlfriends are for teenagers and little boys aren’t supposed to have a girlfriend. He actually told me, “Mom, I do have a girlfriend and we’re going on a date. I’m in love! She’s a Chinese girl and I’m a Chinese boy.” I didn’t know my son was Chinese. She actually looks Filipino maybe half.
She’s a very cute girl, but this isn’t supposed to happen. Little girls are supposed to have cooties. Why doesn’t this little girl have cooties???? Is this normal? I don’t remember having a boyfriend in Kindergarten. It’s one thing to have a little girlfriend, but why’s he talking about buying a nice shirt for a date? Gino used to joke with Jayden about hot chicks. Whenever there’d be a girl on the TV Gino would say, “Jayden, is that a hot chick?” Jayden even asked Gino’s boss at church on Sunday, “Do you like hot chicks? My dad likes hot chicks.” It was funny, we all laughed. Now Gino said he’s never joking with Jayden about hot chicks ever again. I actually do find it funny that Gino is reacting the way he’s reacting. Looks like Ella has no chance at ever having a boyfriend!
Well, everyone, this is history today. My son’s heart belongs to another female. UGH!