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Quick Update

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It sure has been a while. My friend, Jenise, came up from Sacramento to visit for a few days. It was the first time that she got to meet Miss Ella!! She helped out so much and I’m thankful for every ounce help she gave. She did lots and lots of laundry for me – my most hated thing ever.

I’m still having issues with my breathing, heart, anxiety… whatever it is that’s going on with me. Yesterday I went in for an echo and the results should be in next week. They looking to see if one of the little flap things stick, which can make me feel like how I’ve been feeling. It’s frustrating to feel this way. I don’t like feeling like I can’t breathe. I don’t like feeling on edge.

This weekend I’m planning on taking the kids to get their pictures done. We might even do a family picture – I haven’t really decided yet. Ella hasn’t had professional pictures done yet and I feel absolutely HORRIBLE about it. They’ll be cute and that’s all that matters.

That’s just a quick little update on me here.

Results are in………….

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And I do not have a thyroid problem. Next step is they’re going to do an echo on my heart. I don’t find this step necessary, but I also know that it’s not going to hurt anything so I’ve agreed to it. Today I’ve been having extreme difficulty in breathing. Tonight it’s a little better than it’s been all day, but I actually have to struggle to take a deep breath. If I feel this way in the morning I’ll call my doctor up and ask to come in and have my oxygen level checked. I starting wondering today if this has to do w/the cold I had – maybe there’s stuff in my chest that I don’t realize and that’s causing this. Or maybe I have asthma. You know, there has been so many random ideas going through my head on what in the world is going on. I don’t have anxiety today. In fact I’m pretty relaxed. So why am I having a hard time breathing? I guess I’ll have an answer eventually. Here’s to hoping I feel normal tomorrow!

6 Months Old

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I cannot believe that my little girl is half a year old. Where did the time go? Today for some reason (I’m assuming because she is now 6 months old) she has been trying to full blown go mobile on me. If I’m holding her she’ll flip herself out of my arms. If she’s sitting on my lap she’ll lunge forward. Now she’s even getting up on her hands and knees, rocking back and forth and trying with all her might to move forward. This has made me realize that this weekend I will be going to Target to pick up all the baby proofing things I need. So my little Valentine didn’t get all dressed up cute, even though I had boughten her an adorable outfit for today. We’ll have to do Valentine’s Day pictures this weekend. Here is a couple pictures of her today though.

I went to the doctors

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I decided shortly after posting my last post about my anxiety that I needed to call my doctor’s office. So I called, made an appointment and they had me in at 1pm today. The did an EKG and I got to see that I do not have a delta wave, therefore I do not have what Ella has…. RELIEF! However, they did labs on me today to see if I might possibly have a thyroid problem. In the meantime, while I await the results of the blood tests, I was prescribed Xanax. I took one probably around 3pm and w/in 20 minutes I was feeling 100% better. It’s now 11:22pm and I’m starting to feel the heaviness around my heart. This is so frustrating! I think the only solution is me going to Mexico for a week – maybe 2 weeks. I’m really anxious (surprise surprise LOL) to find out what my blood are results are going to be tomorrow.

A New Car! With some anxiety

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It’s almost been a week since my last entry here. We’ve had a busy past few days and I actually have put the computer away for a while and only came on to quickly check my email. I must say… it felt good! Thursday we bought a second car. FINALLY! We actually have been getting by with one car for a long time now, and it’s nice to finally have 2. Neither of us will feel stuck if the other is gone. This decision of course had to be made since Gino is going to have to now be to work @ 4am and Jayden has to be to school by 7:50am. So, we got a 2004 Jetta w/only 26k miles on it. It’s a stick and I’m in love with it. It is, however, Gino’s car. That thing isn’t big enough for both of the kids…. but when I’m going somewhere by myself you bet your butt I drive that thing. I LOVE STICK SHIFT CARS!

I’ve developed a horrible case of anxiety these past few days. Almost to the point that it’s scary. I get shortness in breath to where I can’t take a deep breath. My heart feels like it’s pounding and I just downright feel helpless. There have been many times in my life where I’d say “I have horrible anxiety.” What was I thinking?? What I used to *think* was anxiety is nothing compared to what this feels like. The first thing that ran through my mind when I first felt this was ‘OMG, I have what Ella has‘ I seriously thought I was about to have a heart attack. We were at Target, so we went over by the pharmacy where the blood pressure checker thing is and it said that my pulse was @ 103. Not terribly high, but it is high. I don’t know what my deal is, but I don’t like it. I might make an appointment to see a doctor, but from my understanding there really isn’t much a doctor can do for you beside prescribe medication that I in turn might become dependent on. So, today I’m thinking about maybe finding a yoga class to join and see how that works for me. I just know that I do not like feeling like this.

Summing Up 2007

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This has been an amazing year. We started our year out in Sacramento, where we’ve lived our entire relationship/marriage. Where our son was born. Where our family lives. Where our hearts reside. I found out I was pregnant in December 2006. So, I started 2007 out pregnant and praying and praying that all would go well. In 2006 I had been pregnant and lost our baby girl, Mya. So, we entered 2007 with high hopes that it would be a much better year than 2006 brought us.

April 7, 2007 we did the unthinkable. We packed our home up and moved to Oregon. I never thought in a million years I’d be able to free myself from the stresses of the City. I never thought I’d be able to leave my mom, my sister, my brother – my brand new nephew. But we did it. We knew that we needed to plant our roots. Jayden would be starting kindergarten and we wanted to have him go to school in a small town. We didn’t want the city life for him or our unborn child. So, with tears in our eyes and a heavy weight on our hearts we left everything we knew and loved for a fresh start at life. I’m happy to say that it was the best decision we’ve ever made. Although we miss our families so much, we are finally a content, happy, loving family. I couldn’t ask for more.

August 14, 2007 we gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Ella Marie was 6lbs 7 ounces ~ 18 1/4 in. long. Amazing. The most amazing part of this day was that Jayden was at the hospital. He had his ear to the door waiting to hear his baby sister’s first cry. Moments after she was born Jayden was in the room holding his baby sister. Our family at that moment was complete. It’s like a hole in our hearts was filled. Jayden was an amazing big brother from the beginning. Never an ounce of jealousy, which being that he was an only child for 6 years I was a little scared of this.

September 5, 2007 ~ 1 year since we lost our angel baby Mya. We sent her off balloons at Lithia Park and had a family picnic. It was a very sad day for us, but at the same time we realized that without Mya leaving us we wouldn’t be able to have Ella and we couldn’t imagine life without her.

September 11, 2007 ~ Jayden started kindergarten. I cried. I wouldn’t have cried but the PTA passed out a poem that made me cry. He’s been doing absolutely wonderful and he loves school!! He’s writing his name, adding, can tell you what letter words start with and is working on reading!!! He’s so smart and just an amazing little boy.

October 5, 2007 our world almost came to a crashing stop. Ella was hospitalized and we discovered that our healthy little baby girl wasn’t so healthy. She was extremely sick and we had brought her in to her doctors the day before and was told that she just had an icky stomach virus. I knew in my heart that something else was wrong with her. Something major was wrong with her. October5, 2007 Ella’s doctor called me and asked me to bring her in for a quick check right before the weekend. Thank you, Lord. Thank you thank you thank you! If he hadn’t asked us to bring Ella in Ella would not be with us today. Ella’s heart rate was jumping up to 280 and she had been in this state for so long that her organs were starting to shut down. A couple more hours and this baby girl would have stopped breathing. They ended up shocking her heart and thankfully it worked. But in order to repair the damage they gave her something that paralyzed her and put her on ventilators so she didn’t have to work on breathing while repairing her organs. She got mediflighted to Portland and we learned that our baby girl had a heart defect called Wolf Parkinson White Syndrome. We now are aware and I can instantly tell when something is wrong with her, but we’ve had quite a roller coaster with this. She now is on medication that she started on 10/25/2007. This medication is a miracle. After many hospitalizations she has been symptom free ever since she started this medication. I am so thankful that she doing so well now. She will be able to have a procedure when she’s older where they go into her heart w/a catheter and fix her problem. Until then we are lucky to have a medication that works.

Besides Ella’s heart condition we had a miraculous and wonderful year. We’ve never been happier than where we are at in our lives. I am now able to stay at home with my children while I work for my Grandparents through my house. I couldn’t have ever asked for anything more wonderful. It’s like everything we’ve ever dreamed of us happened to us in 2007. I hope that 2008 brings us as much joy as 2007 has.